My Diary : Chapter Three

I feel sad today as I sees him for the last time.
For the last time. 
I look at him as he goes out of a door. 
I feel happy but suddenly I felt sad because it's my last day in college for semester one. 
I just look around if I can stil look at him. 
But I was searching him like I just lost him.
I just felt that he's gone from my sight. 
It's like I can't see him again,maybe. 
It just felt lost. I feel my heart empty. It just like gone. Empty. 
Felt lost for the first time. 
Moreover, I tried to look at him several time but I can't find him. I cried. 
I cry for him. 
As my heart felt so hurt. 
It felt like I just lost something that precious.
I Know that I can see him next year, but that time I just feel like apart from him.
I feel that he won't come to see me again.
I feel broken.
My heart is broken for like the first time. 
I know he's just the person that I like, but he's special to me.
That time when I saw him, he was looking away. 
Like departing form each other. 
My love is pain. 
I know it hurts so much, but I can'y help it when I have to go home and not see him.
My chest felt hurt so much. 
I just missed him. I love him.
But it is hard to love him from far.
I cried so much until I can't breathe.
I cried so much this time. 
I'm sorry for making it harder.
I don't know you but I love you.
It hurts just when I remember you smiling. 
Walking away the corridor, talk.
I will miss seeing that.
You the one that I love. 
I really want you to know me. 
But you didn't even notice me.
I tried to make you notice me, but what can I do?
I just can love you from far. 
By the way, I love you so much.
I want you to know it so badly. 
I want you here, by my side.
Stay by side, and smiles.
I'm sorry if I'm not perfect as you expected. I'm just lonely girl. :)

My Diary : Chapter Two.

Hi. :)

I saw him again, today.

I was busy walking around the level 3,

which is the lecturer's room. 

After I finish doing my job. 

I look at him around the aisle,

finally, he saw me.

ME.

He stare at me. 

I slightly look at him. 

but I don't know if he notice me. 

and for the first time,

I heard his voice. 

^___^

My Diary : Chapter One.

Hello.

I just want to talk about this guy that I really like.

He just perfect in front of me. 

Sometimes I just said "HE'S MINE".

But well, the reality is he's no one, not mine.

But what can I do?

He's not mine.

So why do I keep looking at him?

WHY? 

I don't understand.

He just there for someone else. Not me.

He doesn't know me. He didn't even notice me.

That I'm exist.

Doesn't it going to hurt me IF he had

someone else?

Doesn't it hurt when I see him with someone else?

Eventhough he look at me.

I'm sure he didn't have any feeling towards me,

Well, sometime I just want to ignore him. 

Make him disappear.

He just there, okay.

There, to look but not to LOVE him. 

Why do I have feeling towards him?

WHY HIM?

I do look like this when I stalk him around college.

Is it LOVE or SOMETHING else??

I think I found him. Just have to be patient about it.
I saw him few times before but then I found him near my grandma's house.
I'm about to faint and clearly
I saw HIM. Before that I found him getting out
of the college but then he headed to the LRT.
I thought that he might live near Ampang.
But my prediction is correct somehow.
I just want to know him.
Eager to know him. just him.
I want him. Just to know him makes me happy.
That's enough, i think.
Hopefully fate can meet us both.
Hopefully.
Maybe fate won't bring us together
It's life, so what can I do?
I just can't help it.
he just light in front of me.
He just there, when I need to see him.
I just want to say hi or greet him.
But I can't. Can't he just know that someone like him?
or a sign or light when he sees me.
Or a feeling like a soulmate does.
I really want that. I love that.
It makes my heart pounding hardly.
I know that.just dunno. I heart him.
so why?
I just saw him and my heart like I want him
But he was like nothing happen like he doesn't
feel it. I know that I'm the only one who loves him.
That's okay with me. <3

My Opinion On 'Postman To Heaven'

Postman To Heaven

천국의 우편배달부 (Cheon-gook-eui Woo-pyeon-bae-dal-boo) : Postman To Heaven.

Directed by Lee Hyeong-min (이형민)

Screenplay by Eriko Kitagawa (北川悅吏子)

•Fantasy •Melodrama •Romance

107min | Release date in South Korea : 2009/11/12

 

"Postman to Heaven" is a co-production between South Korea and Japan
Jae-jun (K-pop band TVXQ member Hero) delivers letters to heaven from those who can't get over the loss of their loved ones. One day Ha-na (Han Hyo-joo), who writes to her late boyfriend, discovers Jae-jun's secret identity. He offers her a part-time job assisting him, and they set off on a 14-day journey.



My opinion is a great one. I love this korean movie. And like the story line, because it doesn't bored me at all. At first I didn't understand this story but then I get it. Jaejoong is in coma and he is interacting with a lady, Hyo-joo. I just  get the message, Jaejoong is actualy want to come back to live. As at the ending of the movie he said " I came back to live". It makes my heart melt. haha. Yes, melting. And the last word that Hyo-joo said at the end of the movie makes me feel a bit sad. 

If, if.....
If someone who you don't know asks you, "Have we met before?"
or "You're the heroine if my never-ending dream" on the streets.
It may not be for a lip service.
That man......
HE may be your destiny.

As you know I'm still searching my soul mate, so its a good one. I like it <3 

^___^ Thank You